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A woman came on the train this morning. My age or maybe a little older or younger. And she came on with a confidence, an air that established her authority on the car. I love to be around people who are so confident it makes me squirm. There’s an unbreakable, fearless energy about them that…
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This past weekend I celebrated my parents’ 35th Wedding Anniversary. My siblings and I planned a surprise vow renewal ceremony and reception. It was replete with wedding clothes, a makeup artist, photographer, cake, decor etcetera and etcetera. It was busy, hectic but mostly beautiful. And I like to process things. I like to sit down…
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I originally wrote this post on April 1, 2014 at 10:06 pm. I happened upon it in my phone this morning. The words still ring true. …………………………………………………………………. One of the most delicate balances I know is the one of extraordinary kindness and being a doormat. How do you balance the two? Extreme givers often grow…
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I have glow-in-the-dark stars stickers on the ceiling of my childhood bedroom. (They’re still up there.) And after a long day of extroversion and bansheeing, it would be seldom known what I did back in my room. A constant thinker, dreamer. Quietly looking at the stars. And I would lay on my back and stare…
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The force to be something well defined and easily categorized is real. Christian – conservative Black – angry Caribbean – promiscuous Woman – too sensitive 27 – dating or married I don’t fight these labels as much as I fight the need to address them. Be. That’s really all I’m trying to do. And not…
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It’s Holy Week. The week we mourn the death and celebrate the resurrection of Christ. A heart posture of sobriety and jubilation. Mixed emotions. Christ came, died and rose. But…this week hasn’t felt holy. I haven’t been especially diligent in my prayer/devotional time. I haven’t felt the weight of what this week represents. I’m simply trying…
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When you commit a wrong, do you run to those who will lovingly rebuke you or to those who ignorantly approve you? Where you run is important. The fact that you run is even more important, but that’s for another day. But, where you run is important because it reveals your heart. Wronging someone or…
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The one question I rarely get a satisfactory answer for is “why?” When people throw shade, my response is “but why though?” And they stammer or confidently say some response. But it rarely seems to fit the circumstance. And I’ve pretty much stopped asking God why. Since I stopped asking, I started hearing. The tragedies…
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In the final quarter of this year, I’ve had to get real real with God. It’s been overwhelming, saddening and maddening. I put all the deaths, cries for justice, bad news, and everything in a huge pile. I pointed to that pile and said, “God, here’s my life.” For me, being real with God is…
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I doodle a lot. And one day my dad asked me, “Aren’t stars your favorite shape?” Surprised, I said “Yeah!” And he simply replied, “I notice you draw stars in your notebook and all over pieces of paper.” And that was that. The conversation probably just tapered off and we went back to what we were…
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