The one question I rarely get a satisfactory answer for is “why?”

When people throw shade, my response is “but why though?”

And they stammer or confidently say some response. But it rarely seems to fit the circumstance.

And I’ve pretty much stopped asking God why.

Since I stopped asking, I started hearing.

The tragedies and circumstances in life can cloud our view of the goodness of God.

And one has nothing to do with the other.

God is good.

That stands regardless of circumstance, situation or feelings.

But lately I’ve felt like God has been answering my simple why prayers from long ago.

And he answered it through Deuteronomy 8:2.

Why did that happen?

It was to humble you, to test you, and to know what was in your heart.

And it began to make sense. God has been uprooting pride in my heart, testing the fault lines of my character and sifting through the contents of my heart.

He’s not making a mockery of my pain. He’s refining it.

And he’ll do the same with yours if you allow him into the process.

This year, I’m not asking God why. I’m asking him what, how and where.

What do you want me to learn?
How does my heart need to change?
And where do you want me to go?

Hope this helps!
Ambini

p.s. Happy New Year!