I’ve never wanted to jinx it.

Put my mouth on the goodness of life and cause it to stop.

I’ve mostly had a certain level of optimism towards life….until I didn’t.

And once I stopped that unrestrained, relentless optimism, a new strain of pessimism settled in.

And here’s that strain: It’s not that good things won’t happen. They’ll happen, but they won’t last.

The time stamp on goodness is in milliseconds.

Speedily enjoy this. It will inevitably change.

So I think about the end before I barely experience the beginning.

I prep my heart to grieve the good times.

But you can’t do both.

You can’t fully throw yourself into joy while prepping for despair.

You can’t jinx it.

But how can’t I?

When so much of what I’ve seen is torrential ends, debilitating heart breaks, deep hopes shattered.

You jinx it from the start.

In where and what your focus was placed.

I’m learning this new form of optimism.

No thing lasts, but there is One who does.

Jesus makes life unjinxable.

So when all the jigs are up. He’s standing.

Through the disappointments, failed attempts, and not yets, we don’t have to let our pessimism stand in the way of seeing His glory.

And therein lies the confident hope we can face life with.

Hope this helps!

Ambini

P.S. I’m back. Maybe I’ll be able to unpack what that means in a post, but for now I’ll be writing a blog a month. Love you!